Subject: fraught

From: "Harold Davidson" <[email-masked]>
Date: Wed, 20 Sep 2006 20:27:50 +0900

Thatvexed Damini still more, for she looked on it as a more cunning formof punishment.
Well, well, lets have your idea a little more clearly, said Satish. She remained long thus before sheraised her head. Nor need I pause to make it clearthat Damini had no compunction in asking anything from me. She blossoms out, in limitless profusion,in form and scent and movement.
We two had come to be the pillars of the sect.
That is how the tyrannical imposition of faith began. I did not come, continued Damini, wanting to please your devotees.
Where the noose of Maya is so glaringlyobvious, why be foolhardy enough to take risks? I crawled back to my blanket and stretched myself on it again. I divined that he must have been goadedwith repeated inward urgings to have left the temple then. Annada bestowed on hisson-in-law a house in Calcutta and sufficient money to keep him forlife.
For this difference I may have been partly responsible.
Pray have no concern aboutany trouble of mine. Last night it stole a chicken from the Mussulman quartersover there.
Lilananda was pleased at this proof of Daminis devotion.
VIThe house was in a constant tumult with rising waves of fervour.
Her frequent absences smote us tempestuously.
Damini did not send for me to read to her any more,nor had she anything else to ask of me.
Then something seemed to cling about my feet.
Satish, who seemed to have made some kindof effort meanwhile, came straight to the point.
Well, well, lets have your idea a little more clearly, said Satish.
We could catch momentary glimpses ofher through opening doors and flapping curtains.
His outward calm had been the only measure of his depth of feeling. I was about to make my reply, when Satish stopped me with a gesture,and went on: Visri, old fellow! Secondly, she showedno eagerness to drink in the Masters words of wisdom.
The gods,being fortunate, did not feel bound to give it a hearing.
All itsfondness is still for earthen walls.
As for my condition, Damini has left nothing so vague in it as torequire any guess-work.